Wow! What a ride! Along about Tuesday I started getting antsy about getting news from the "Rocket Science" pathologist. The kidney cancer specialist who told me he could get the pathologist to get it done in a couple days was ummmmmm - overly optimistic? So by Wed I was really impatient and by Thursday I was resentful and dreamed about TPing (or burning) his house. How dare he keep me in limbo. Then I learned he was already at a conference in Chicago.
So,I get to practice acceptance, patience, forgiveness and just plain being realistic. Too many things would need to have fallen in place to get that pathology analysis done and delivered to the specialist then to me that quickly. Okay, it will be done when it is done and I have very little to say about when. Duh!
The good news is that we have heard from two different sources that the specialist is among the very best at my category of cancer. Probably well worth waiting for.
Going through this serious illness process has skewed me into thinking way too much about myself and thinking my condition is worse than, more important than anyone else' situation. However, all around me people are showing up with serious stuff. Maybe it's in the water. One guy said it must be Alkaida. Lots of humor in these "organ recital" conversations. My life before cancer I am calling "BC" and it is unbelievable how oblivious I must have been to people around me going through serious health problems.
Compassion means "sympathetic consciousness of others' distress together with a desire to alleviate it". BC I was very short on that consciousness, almost not even noticing. Well, I notice now!!!
Bill
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Hey Bill, Was good to hear what was going on! "They" could have told you that the doctor was going to be out of town but then I don't know who "they" would have been.
ReplyDeleteWe are glad he's top notch in his field and we'll be glad when he gets home!
Meanwhile, enjoy your weekend!
SLY, Gina
The Wellness Center...excellent place for you to check out, especially the way you are feeling NOW. All those people are going through, or have been through your situation. It was VERY helpful for me. Hope you had a good week-end.
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