The little white pill is unpredictable. I thought I had a routine: take pill @ 1 or 2 pm, feel "hinky" for a couple hours and then have a pleasant late afternoon and evening. The program seems to be changing. Saturday, to try and entertain after 1pm, I took "my friend" at 11am; 2 or 3 hours earlier than my routine. I swear, I was messed up for two days. I mean like hunkered down in a cave. Tuesday and Wed I rode my bike knowing that would help, but both days were still odd. Today I rode, took the pill at 1:15pm, pushed through to ride home, showered and putzed on the computer and then about 5 the hinky feeling started. Poor balance, shaky legs and hands, jello feeling in my head. What do you call that? Hinky.
I don't like it. But, there is no dirt on my belly, I am vertical most of the time, and I am sucking air. We all know the little white pill is working and the discomfort is worth it.
Meanwhile, I spoke with one of the more impactful people in my recovery, a woman I admire. She was waylaid by a surprise heart problem and I ask that you steer your prayers her way. It's not just me, she has helped many many addicts to recover and we need her!
Bill
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Hi Dear Bill- This is Kathryn from the Northwest. I send my love and prayers. I think of frequently and send loving, healing energy your way especially when I am dancing at Zumba.
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